Rough weekend.

Today’s not better than yesterday, except that I haven’t put on pants because I haven’t left my apartment, and that’s always pretty sweet.

I did end up crocheting something last night, but today my hand can’t take it so I’ll have to finish it another time.

The craft show at work might not be a good idea for me. I don’t want to hurt myself just because I’m bummed and need something to keep me occupied. So today I’ve been doing, ugh, housework. And made nacho cheese sauce because I needed nachos. Now that the weather isn’t crazy hot anymore I should probably start going out walking or something, but ugh, exercise, hahaha. 

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I’m having a rough day.

You know those days where you feel like shit and you don’t want to tell anyone why because it’s a stupid fucking reason and you don’t want anyone to know how small and petty your soul is? 

Dude, that was almost entirely derailed by finding a $50 bill under my clock radio while dusting just now. 

I still feel like crying over how even with the things I’m good at I’m not THAT good because that’s got my self-worth meter deep into the negative numbers tonight, but $50!

I’m alive and stuff.

I don’t think I’ve posted since getting a new job. It pays better but we’re saving for a house so I still can’t buy all the yarn and fabric and cool specialty tools I want. I guess I wouldn’t want to pack them anyway. :/

Lately I’m either being good and not wrecking my hands (the new job is still data entry) or learning new things. Currently I’m really sucking at brioche. I’m not great at knitting anyhow, but this is just sad. I did okay with learning to crochet the crocodile stitch a couple weeks ago, so I’ll show that off…

There’s not much else to say. I may or may not do a craft show in a few weeks, I have to decide eventually, but it’s at work so I also have to get permission from my boss. 

Anyway, this app kind of sucks for formatting, so I’m going to end this now and poke around at the settings. Because I’m bored and my arm is weird (maybe I slept on it?) to the point where I’m working kind of slow at my job and I don’t want to exacerbate that. Hopefully I don’t go another 9 or whatever months before I post again…

Holy crap, it’s Christmas Eve.

I have no photos right now, largely because I’m drinking and watching Penny Dreadful with a cat on my lap. The big red blanket is done, the maiden aunt scarf is done, the angel for grandma is done, and we got the sister a super cute pajama onesie in mid-October.

Sean gets to handle the menfolk. Which is why we are totally unprepared for them.

I’m planning to spend much of the afternoon/evening with a friend and have been trying to make her a scarf, but my cat is an asshole so it’s not been a productive evening, lol. Hopefully I’ll have good updates before Christmas Day.

Year in review + existential despair.

So it’s a couple years on from when I realized I couldn’t keep up with my business anymore and it’s still pretty awful. One of the most difficult parts is that my family is… sort of unsympathetic. My kid is barely an adult and currently upset that he has to work to pay for everything that isn’t the roof over his head or the food in his mouth. Dick. Continue reading

And now for something completely different…

No new craft news to report so instead I’ll tell you a story that pretty much sums me up as a person.

10 or 15 years ago I signed up for one of those free credit report websites so I could check my FICO score. (710 back then, now it’s probably like… idk, 4?) I totally forgot to end my free trial before they started charging me monthly fees, so when I saw the charge on my bank statement I tried to log on and cancel. Couldn’t get in. I hadn’t repeated any of my other passwords, couldn’t remember the new one, and couldn’t reset it because it wasn’t accepting my answers to the security questions. I called customer service and the rep pulled up my info. After explaining my issue to her, she was quiet for a moment.

“I can’t tell you what your answers are, but I can tell you they’re all exactly the same.”

“…did I answer everything ‘Tony Danza?'”

Yes. That’s what I did.

Ow.

Worked too much on projects lately! My hand isn’t bad yet, but I should really make sure I can use it at work tomorrow. 😦

I’ve almost finished a mock-up of the tentacles for the octopus hat and I knitted (what? I never knit!) my kid a scarf/cowl/neckwarmer thing to wear when he has to walk home from work at night. I was nice and used yarn that matches his 10 or so Raiders hats. It looks about as bad as most things I’ve ever knit, lol. At least it’s warm?

My second shitty cold of the holiday season has me coughing like fucking crazy, so that’s something I want to complain about here for a second. It’s driving me nuts and scaring the cat. I gave it to the boyfriend, as well. So that’s also fun.

Back to looking longingly at the yarn I can’t play with, boo.